The moods of the month

In this article, I do not know if I am going to arrive at a conclusion. But rather, this article is more a written expression of my meandering thoughts. The month of January has come to an end, and like every end it signifies the beginning of something new. In this case, it's just another month. Or on the surface, that's how we perceive it. Just another month-just another page to turn on the calender and just another mortgage cheque to write out. But I feel there is a lot more to it than just that.The beginning of something new brings forth a gamut of emotions. You're probably wondering whether I am crazy. So let me get to the centre of my thought process. At the end of every year, 31st December to be precise,the excitement in the air is palpable. People are busy planning what to do where and, despite claims to the contrary, praying that the new year will bring forth a lot more joy and success. If you strip it down to basic facts-the 31st of December is like any other day. The sun rises and sets and the stars come out. It is we who perceive it to be special, and that's becasue of the calendrical significance of it. It signifies a fresh start, a clean slate-so pure and untouched like the dawn of the morning. The hope and joy so fresh and filled to the brim that it permeates the very air surrounding us. We draw up a list of things we want to accomplish in the year and the places we want to visit. There is a sense of elation that the whole year stretches out ahead of us and the fierceness of determination to check mark each and every item on "the list". We move through January in this daze of emotion. February brings with it a slight prick of reality-get started!!! The "ides of march" followed by April and May observe an oscillation of emotions betweeen the achievement of those goals and the humdrum of daily life. June is a significant month-ok, I admit i just said that because it's my birthday. But on another note, it is the middle of the year. We stand having gone through six months with another six months streched out ahead of us. There is a, if i may use the word, desperation to get everything in order. One curses the rain for it's disruption of those rushed activities, however we end the month with a sense of satisfaction. The list looks a lot better now-there are a lot more check marks. And as is human nature, you decide to give yourself a "break" and there are a host of festivals to entice you into doing that. November is an odd time. There exists a dual state of mind-get all those check marks or relax, enjoy festive spirit and let worry melt away. Alas, procrastination is the thief of time- and with our thoughs time runs by. It is perhaps during this time that the adage off a company encouraging us to get on with it rings loud and clear. And, thus we are back to December.By mid decemeber one gets over the melancholy of the half checked off list to contribute to the surge of emotion and celebration, thus bidding adieu to yet another year.So you see, the months have moods! Or rather, we impart our moods. I would like to add a disclaimer. This article is perhaps relatable to people like me, who carry the weight of worry on their shoulders. There are those who achieve each and every check mark by sheer determintaion or by playing it cool though the year. Either which way, the mind tends to traverse down different roads as mine has this time.